Quoting a quote from the book I’m reading (See July 9th entry, “Bug can read”):

“A lot of times we are looking for a sign that tells us we’re godly. We want to preach, or be a missionary or whatever, all to help ourselves believe that God is using us. We look everywhere but to God to make us feel godly. We try to convince others we are godly so that we can convince ourselves we are godly. The bottom line is that godliness is about relationship, not about image. I guess what I am saying is that we shouldn’t worry about where God is taking us or what God is doing through us. Instead, we should be asking ourselves ‘Who is God?’ Instead of asking what it feels like to follow God or be used by God, we should be asking who God is, and whether we really know Him. Everything else will take care of itself.”

This whole feeling I’ve been having of needing a purpose or whatever… maybe I’m barking up the wrong tree. Maybe this guy in the book is right. Maybe I’m focusing too much on looking or feeling godly, and should just be focusing on knowing God. Hmmm… an awful lot to consider on a Monday.