I Used To
I did some decluttering & organizing in my home office today and I came across a lot of old mementos in the process. It left me thinking a lot about how much my life has changed over the years. For example…
I used to have free time. I spent 83% of it watching tv. Not much is changed except I have much less free time.
I used to hang out with my friends more often, yet now the friendships I have are deeper than ever.
I used to be in love with my husband. That has not changed 
In fact, my love for him grows exponentially stronger every year.
I used to be thin. I’m a bit heavier now but I’m ironically I’m finally happy with the way I look.
I used to make more money, but I was broke and in lots of debt. Now we both make less but our bills are paid and we have money left at the end of each month.
I used to cry a lot. I’m not sure what changed exactly, but it takes a lot nowadays to make me cry. My skin has thickened over the years and I’m just not as emotional as I used to be.
I used to feel imprisoned by pain and fatigue. I have fibromyalgia. I now know what my physical limits are and have learned to work with them rather than let them rule my life.
I used to be an overchiever. I have let go of a lot of my perfectionistic tendencies.
I used to feel guilty all the time. Mostly for being such a terrible
housekeeper. I’m not a lot better at housekeeping but I no longer have
the guilt.
I’m sure I could go on but that’s what comes to mind currently. If you had told me 10 years ago about the person I would be today, I wouldn’t have believed you. But oh, I am so happy to be here. God has done so many great things in my life and taught me so many life-changing lessons.
What about you? Are you where you thought you would be? Have you changed in ways that surprise you?
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August 11th, 2008 at 8:55 am
The ironic thing, I was thinking on this exact thing this weekend. With a band reunion coming up it has me pondering who I was and who I am today. Much has changed,, for the better, and I could not be more blessed than to have the life, family and friends that I have.
I think my Senior year when you asked me where I wanted to be in 10 years I answered.
Married, with two children, own a home and drive a Saturn. Well, I drive a Jimmy but that is just fine with me.
August 11th, 2008 at 5:11 pm
Funny you mention this because I was thinking about who I am recently as well! When I was a senior in HS, I would have told you that I would be married (to Brian Grant) with kids, own a house and a Jimmy (ha, that’s funny Sarah)! I gave very little thought to WHO I was, but what I wanted.
Well, I still think about what I want (I’m human!), but I’m so proud of the work that God has done in my thus far. I know he’s continuing this process and that in itself makes me happy! God is THE best thing about me and that has happened to me. I never would have imagined that I would have moved out of state, that I would have traveled overseas, or had different friends - or so many of them of amazing quality! I think I was only living one day at a time back then and didn’t really have any dreams about the future other than marriage & kids.
God WILL keep His promise to me, I WILL be married with kids one day soon, but in addition, I’ve got all these amazing additions, adventures to my life. It’s just so full and rich where it was empty before. PRAISE GOD!!