You know how computers sometimes start running really slow and you have to run a defrag because all the pieces got scattered all over the hard drive (I assume not literally) and they need to be sorted and recollected into their proper spots? That’s how my brain feels right now.

A lot has happened in a short amount of time. Pregnancy, miscarriage, working like a headless chicken at the office. I have lost track of time. My thoughts and memories are all scattered around and every time I try to do something I have to spend an annoying amount of time trying to figure it out. Seriously, you could slap an hourglass sticker on my forehead and call me Windows.

What’s the saying? When in doubt, reboot? Maybe I just need a reboot. But how? Oh well. It will slow down. It will get better. My brain will start working properly again, eventually.

These are the times I am thankful for not being overcommitted with my time. I used to have lots of commitments. Pre-parenthood, of course. I trimmed my schedule down when I got pregnant with Luke. Now it’s just family, friends, and work. Which leaves lots and lots of room for LIFE to happen. I like it that way.

Right now Mike is dealing with muscle spasms in his lower back. Crippling muscle spasms. He went to the emergency room at 4:30 this morning. I was fully prepared to load him and Luke up in the car and drive him there, but he insisted he drive himself. They gave him some medication so hopefully he’ll be seeing some relief soon. The only other time I’ve seen him in this much pain is when he was having cluster headaches. It is really hard to see him hurting and not be able to do anything. He keeps apologizing to me and thanking me for taking care of Luke and I keep telling him that’s just silly. In Sickness And In Health. Besides, I don’t know what he’s thanking me for. I may have changed a few diapers and played ball with the boy, but I’ve totally slacked on washing the dishes. And the laundry, but I always slack on the laundry.

I hope you’re all having a good day! I know I am!