Not so trivial thoughts
Big heavy things weighing on my mind…
- I have osteoarthritis in my knees. It’s always a little more painful during the colder months, but this year I’ve noticed considerably more pain. Especially when walking down stairs. It makes me feel much older than I am. I also have a bit of osteoarthritis in my lower back. This is a degenerative kind of arthritis, and to be honest that scares me a little.
- My OB told me to wait three to four months after the miscarriage before trying to conceive again. It’s been more than three months so we’ve been thinking and praying about what we should do. Do we still want to try for another and if we do, when?
- My grandpa is dying. I don’t know how long he has but I know I need to call him. I just… oh, I’m just such a pansy so I don’t because I just won’t know what to say. That’s an enormous cop out.
- My mom is moving to Oklahoma. Oklahoma. That’s way far from Michigan. My stepdad finally found a job in writing there and I totally agree they should go, but I am going to miss her. A lot.
Happy things that weigh a little less:
- Luke is highly entertaining at this age (17 months if you lost track).
- My job is going well.
- My house is clean. Super clean. And I wasn’t the one who had to clean it.
- My husband is amazing (see #3).
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November 10th, 2008 at 2:52 pm
Hmmm….your knees hurt, and they get worse in the cold. Your parents are moving to Oklahoma. There are apparently jobs in Oklahoma. Hmm….I could see a solution here I think
As far as your grandpa, just call him. you don’t need to script out a conversation. If you feel led, just tell him that you don’t know what to say. Maybe he has something he wants to say to you, and he needs you to call him. It’s better to get over the fear. It won’t be nearly as bad as you expect it to be.
Smile.
November 10th, 2008 at 8:45 pm
Thanks, Matt. I did call him. It wasn’t nearly as awkward as I thought it would be and I think he was really happy I called. I know I am.
I don’t know if I could ever leave Michigan, but I’m sure my mom thought the same thing. We’ll have to see what kind of weather she writes home about.
November 10th, 2008 at 8:48 pm
These are quite a lot to have on your mind all at the same time. Thinking of you…..
November 10th, 2008 at 9:44 pm
That’s tough Mindy. I’ll be praying for direction on when/if to try again…I can’t imagine…I’m glad you called your grandpa…I’ve been going through something similar. Nathaniels dad is really sick with Cancer and he seems to be getting worse…The doctors are saying we should say anything we want said now before he declines anymore…Anyway, I feel like I should tell him how much he means to be but somehow I just feel stupid whenever I try…ugh
Anyway, I know how you feel and am praying for you.
DO YOU LIKE TOP CHEF?????
November 10th, 2008 at 11:57 pm
Mindy. I’ll be praying for your knees and lower back. Also about deciding when to add to your family. I think I hear God saying…”Go to your bedroom, I want to bless oma and opa with another grandchild! NOW!
So glad you talked to your grandpa, I remember how much your visit met to grandpa Hoffmann.
I love you and look sooo forward to Thanksgiving.
Remember you are often in my thoughts and prayers. I’ll be retired by Christmas and can’t wait to see you all ALOT more (God willing)
Claudia
November 12th, 2008 at 9:33 am
Love you tons!
Had to laugh at Omas response to more grandchildren but seriously…when your ready…if your ready. You do make SUPER CUTE kids though.
Mom to Oklahoma? Does this mean you are going to have to add travel to the budget?
Glad you made the call to your grandpa. Every opportunity we have to tell someone we love them should be a moment we seize.
I LOVE YOU!