Ever since this big hairy diagnosis of MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS I feel like everything has been all about me. I know this is a disease that can be managed, and so I’m spending a lot of mental energy and research (which I love by the way, I’m a Google Girl) on deciding how I’m going to manage it. It’s a lifelong disease, but I know if I take a lot of the right steps right now, it can mean the difference of years, decades even, of independence before the impending disability.

So. I feel like everything has been all about me and I’m kind of sick of it to be honest. I don’t want to be so self-focused and I’m ready to focus on other people. In the last week several of our friends and family have been affected by various bad news. Death, cancer, accidents, surgeries. It’s actually helping to take the focus off myself and it gives me things to pray for. I like having things to pray for, people to pray for.

So here is the question: Is it selfish to wish for bad things to happen to other people in order to help you become less self-focused? How sick is that?